stupid feel...

i am vry poor in english..plz..don laugh at my eng after or reading or before reading de passages below,plz,hold ur laugh,don laugh out in front of my passages n let others noe my weaknesses..i appreciate ur coorperation..really..

start think of ppl again.......
sometimes,i reali hope tat dere wil b magician or chemis or scientis tat can giv me `wang qing sui'(somethings lik drug or medicein tat can let some1 4get his or her most beloved totally)(of course,4 free plz,i am quite poor)..
reali wanna forget many many about feeling de things..
dear my god:"i wil b facing SPM e,reali can't let me forget those useless adnoing(1 word tat pronoun lik tat) thinking?"
ya,tat wil b sweet when u thinking or missing someone or sometime i will smile by myself when doing tat,but,
dunno y(again~),a loneliness feeling will come out just lik free gift of missing tat ppl...my god!!

seriously,i am thinking to b heartless(i reali used to practise heartless n no-mood face in front of mirror)..god,da*n not suitable to my face!n de feeling of wan ppl is now in front of me keep on came out just lik when u compress certain gas(these few days lik chemistry very much,of course,lik is lik,de real su* result is reality)until a certain maximum limit,those gas particle wil b compresed into liquid form n when even more compress on it,de compreser wil burst n de big pressure released into surrounding in a sudden(tat is wat i feel)..i am going to b crazy(or mad)..
but,one benifit of havin tat kind of feel,learn to b calm down,breath,change gd mood in a short period(so,many ppl thought i hav two personality in tis body shale(some word call cover))..ya,oni tat single benifit..

spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm.....is'it reali reali so actual to judge teenagers?if i fail certain subjects,will my future life b very poor,oways sad,run here run dere to escape owners(i mean pemiutang),n oways afraid of life,cannot see light(in cantonese plz),my children wil b look down by ppl??????????????ya,i don wan tat happen to me..but i reali don lik(hate de most) to sit in front of books n keep on reeeeeeeeeeeading n blessing power of god will help me to memories all of those tat insid examing area..plz..wat de h*ll is tat activity,is it healthy?healthier den playing or doing exercise?(phyzically(something lik tat))..even i tried to lent fren's bio notes to study..guess wat feeling of me used to read omost all of form 5 works?i act lik i am reading very very intresting story book(wit a little of curious n intrest at biology)!!add on de 2nd n 3rd paragraph above problems..how can i get gd result?haiz..

my fren r.k teach me one thing accidently de day b4 yesterday..mayb u n who now very gd in relation,no matter freindship, love or even brothers or sisters,one day in de future u will not meet him/her,or hate or wat,who noe?all of them now will oni b experience in ur future(thiking of wat u hav promise to meet who back how many years later,funny rite?)..so,tats y i oways used to choose not care,not hear,not think,not taste,not see on certain ppl tat trying to teach me to b more mature..plz..how old am i?if i don eat ice-cream,don see comic,don watch amination,don chew chewing gum now wit my feeling to them still warm,who noes i will regret or not?

today wrote so much of bullsh*t adi..start feel lonely again at tis moonless,startless,freedomless,you+less midnight..so,after these sooooo bullshit of wat i had wrote all,wat r u think bout me?tell me plz..++(if u reali understand half of above passage,u reali my true blood diamond fren..tel me if u r..)