sick le....

老实说，我是没有想过，就当你生病了，想说随便玩玩的告诉某个人说帮忙祈祷一下，那个人竟然回答我说祈祷了,'it' still said i had done all de blessing,including indian,christian,buddhiest n many other way else..somemore,when i told 'it' i am still sicking n want 'it' immediately bless once more jz 4 fun..'it' just straight away stop conversation,2 hand stick together,closed eyes,n start praying 4 me after i jz turned away my head from 'it'..wat a true fren..i oways thought i am de one who oways do tat kind of bessing on others n finaly,my turn now..haha..thank you!! ya,is u!!thx 4 saying those things n all de blessing,n thx 4 calling me out so many times...i thought after i hav put so many aeroplane,no body dare to call me out anymore tim...

ya,wat a best medicine in this world from de sight of psychology,but,yeah~~i am stil sicking..mayb cos my antibiotic n fewer pills ate at wrong timing..wat it mean by 4 hour once???even now stil dunno...

i realised,a tiny request on healthy is how important..it realy priceless..it wil warm heart even malaysia is enough hot everytime even at nite..jz now,i hav heared fire cracker,dunno wat r u all doing at tis moment...any1..who had wasted time n energy read my poor english blog until now,me,hope u all hav a great day sincerly now n 4ver!!!don ever delete or ignore those caring even a single sentences sms..it may take oni 1~15 cent,but he/she is trying to forward tat message to u..tat moment,even 1 or 0.5 sec..they r wasting tat moment jz 4 u,frenz..

i used to imagine beeing a star on de dark huge nitesky,tat might b so quiet,looking on de ground,so many chess game is helding,all ppl is having their move,don u feel intresting?looking on ppl when they doing some funny action,lik digging their nose n thought no1 is observed n laughed at them...haha...a star wil take no responsible on eveything tat cos by it,jz stay n watching a comedy or tragedy wit live n exclusive!!

at de jz passed christmas nite,i had stayed a gd memory wit christmas,i used to think tat christmas oways wil b a festival tat i may never felt tat harmonies,warm,or another word,christmas feel...i hav lived 17++ yrs, i had watched S.C flying her n dere inside tv around 17 yrs times...now oni i realise my christmas nite might totally b same wit mooncake festival..haha..i am sitting in front of office,watching a perfectly full moon,drinking red bean sup,wit a little gal bsid..thx god 4 everything!!

i am setting appear offline again....no point 4 me to on9 rite?flashed bak b4 de conversation,i oni can say haizzzzz 4 my bored personality...eveerthing happen hav its own reason...jz lik no much ppl lik to chat wit me...EVEN U...haha...i am not blaming..jz..digging my own weakness out...

haha...wil tis blog boring??haha..i think so,its ok if u saying dirty thing or wat scolding me or wat now...plz clam down...actually i dint expected any1 of my fren now could read my typing until here...haha...if u r...congratzz...u can stand de top 100 boring stuff in this amasing earth which is my blog...dun worry,u r now qualified to sign ur own name under clasberg world record...u should b praise by al de world!!!haha...

y don i use colour to decorate my blog?it is bcos of i dun wan my blog jz de same wit others n i am lazy..normal or simple is de best 4 me in tis case..haha..

高级餐馆的我

考试问卷，就像是刁蛮食客的订菜单，让我们这些盲目目的厨师，照着菜单一道一道地烹煮出自己对那道菜名的了解。首先是材料的准备新鲜（必须做最后温习），接着，火候的掌握（充分地控制住自己的心情）。　然后，调味料的运用（flexible curve,ruler,eraser)，而，还在实习的厨师将会运用出厨师之间的默契,以隔壁厨师的料理作为互相参考．而我，就是属于自暴自弃的二流厨师．自知厨艺不佳，不知道为什么就是认为自己不会是成功的大厨，不会一直获餐馆的肯定，永远不会荣获几个大奖，在厨艺界闻名，　但，就是喜欢作梦，幻想自己总有一天会荣获某个大奖，值得用上光宗耀祖的非凡荣誉，而后半辈子可以不用头顶与驼背平行过一辈子．在我那间高贵的餐馆里，我总是扮演跟着成功大厨们庞大背影的身后，默默地点头，微笑，贊同的角色．　他们总是爱谈论一些菜色的高级作法，高级的食谱，火侯的掌握记巧，名厨们的历史，炫耀他们对名厨们的了解，作过什么，怎样，哪里，为什么，等等，他们说到这里，我已经在角落一个人地哼着那几首饮歌，顿时的我就跟他们一样，一样在自己享受着自己的所作所为，可悲足够描述我顿时的心情．

yaya??????

又一个烦闷的星期六晚上

谢谢以前有看我的博客的人，你们不像某些人，看完了就到msn上去向我投诉我的英文烂。也谢谢给我鼓励的人。谢谢。。



现在是凌晨1.32，想起时钟快要到可以唱张智成的歌，却一点睡意都没有。

可能是之前，谁人说要我多写些东西上来的缘故，让我不知不觉地养成习惯了。



又一个烦闷的星期六晚上

没有很多人找我聊天的msn，set着虚假的buzy，忘了当初登录为的是什么。

为的是等你的出现。然而，你却不知道在做什么，迟迟不肯login。

每次，我都伤心地关机，明日脸上所长出的豆豆，长得真不值得。

stupid feel...

i am vry poor in english..plz..don laugh at my eng after or reading or before reading de passages below,plz,hold ur laugh,don laugh out in front of my passages n let others noe my weaknesses..i appreciate ur coorperation..really..

start think of ppl again.......
sometimes,i reali hope tat dere wil b magician or chemis or scientis tat can giv me `wang qing sui'(somethings lik drug or medicein tat can let some1 4get his or her most beloved totally)(of course,4 free plz,i am quite poor)..
reali wanna forget many many about feeling de things..
dear my god:"i wil b facing SPM e,reali can't let me forget those useless adnoing(1 word tat pronoun lik tat) thinking?"
ya,tat wil b sweet when u thinking or missing someone or sometime i will smile by myself when doing tat,but,
dunno y(again~),a loneliness feeling will come out just lik free gift of missing tat ppl...my god!!

seriously,i am thinking to b heartless(i reali used to practise heartless n no-mood face in front of mirror)..god,da*n not suitable to my face!n de feeling of wan ppl is now in front of me keep on came out just lik when u compress certain gas(these few days lik chemistry very much,of course,lik is lik,de real su* result is reality)until a certain maximum limit,those gas particle wil b compresed into liquid form n when even more compress on it,de compreser wil burst n de big pressure released into surrounding in a sudden(tat is wat i feel)..i am going to b crazy(or mad)..
but,one benifit of havin tat kind of feel,learn to b calm down,breath,change gd mood in a short period(so,many ppl thought i hav two personality in tis body shale(some word call cover))..ya,oni tat single benifit..

spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm.....is'it reali reali so actual to judge teenagers?if i fail certain subjects,will my future life b very poor,oways sad,run here run dere to escape owners(i mean pemiutang),n oways afraid of life,cannot see light(in cantonese plz),my children wil b look down by ppl??????????????ya,i don wan tat happen to me..but i reali don lik(hate de most) to sit in front of books n keep on reeeeeeeeeeeading n blessing power of god will help me to memories all of those tat insid examing area..plz..wat de h*ll is tat activity,is it healthy?healthier den playing or doing exercise?(phyzically(something lik tat))..even i tried to lent fren's bio notes to study..guess wat feeling of me used to read omost all of form 5 works?i act lik i am reading very very intresting story book(wit a little of curious n intrest at biology)!!add on de 2nd n 3rd paragraph above problems..how can i get gd result?haiz..

my fren r.k teach me one thing accidently de day b4 yesterday..mayb u n who now very gd in relation,no matter freindship, love or even brothers or sisters,one day in de future u will not meet him/her,or hate or wat,who noe?all of them now will oni b experience in ur future(thiking of wat u hav promise to meet who back how many years later,funny rite?)..so,tats y i oways used to choose not care,not hear,not think,not taste,not see on certain ppl tat trying to teach me to b more mature..plz..how old am i?if i don eat ice-cream,don see comic,don watch amination,don chew chewing gum now wit my feeling to them still warm,who noes i will regret or not?

today wrote so much of bullsh*t adi..start feel lonely again at tis moonless,startless,freedomless,you+less midnight..so,after these sooooo bullshit of wat i had wrote all,wat r u think bout me?tell me plz..++(if u reali understand half of above passage,u reali my true blood diamond fren..tel me if u r..)

i think tis is my 1st blog..

these few days..i reali seems moodless..dunno y..most of my fren askin y am i look lik tat?mayb is because of i dint saw her today..after de last time relationship,i learn to b tough,not to show my weak side to others..i wanna thx her to teach me tat..but de fees of this lesson was too high 4 me..sufferes,loneliness..u noe i hav put on how many days of suffering cannot sleep jz bcos of u?