start study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dam* u!!! start study!!!!!

hi there

when i saw her online, my heart will drop about few millimeters...
and start feel happy at least she is online just like i am....

guess wat, many ppl watching me doing wrong stuff, but no one stop me.....

well, firstly i am not blaming, but, come on!!! we are friend wat, u should remind me wat wrong had i just done....

everybody was just like boh song den left me behind and afgterthat no one is mentioning the stuff................



i am very unhappy with that!!!!

hahah...

everytimes i open this blog, i tot i will have many thing to say about,
i tot i am very very unhappy,
i tot i am very suffer,
but,

haha....i can cure myself wat...

well,

bad dream woke me up,
til i am afraid of getting into sleep anymore,


i need to study well well!!!!!!!!!!

i have to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what if....

what if she is fooling me?
what if she is just playing around me?
happy that having fun from me?


i said i don wan to get into relationship!!!!!!!!!!!
cannot r?!!!

hahahahahaha...it cant be...
^^
i know her she know me,
we r just keeping silence....









what a fool

hehe....

i am thinking to change something...
hehe....


i think u r shy right?
haha...i knew it!!!

one smile is more than enough

for the whole day...

seriously sick

this is 2:05am, i am still awake, i am wondering what am i doing?
i don seems to appreciate my liver at all....
bao gan la!!!!!!!!!!!!

well,
if the answer replied will definitely hurt and had a little bit of happiness if the situation grow the opposite site...
y so serious to know the answer?

hahahaha...WHY SO SERIOUS!!!!!!

oh ya, had i told u that i am courserep now?
which is doing fwd news, announcement, events,
and deal with sir n officer bout anything of class....

well, den, i joined college softball team,
n after that straight away go for taici,

and now!!! i am involved in S.I.F.E...
a worldwide organization to help ppl,
is a society to gather all the ppl to help and contribute,
and they said it will definitely affect my studies....

i dont know y.....


y am i putting my self in so much of trouble?
did i earn a pretty C.G.P.A?
no~~~
did i have too much of time?
no~~~


omg!!!! now u must be thinking i am insane or anything equivalent to that right?

u saying i don't care bout my result?
no~~
i don care bout my assignment which made me form oni 2 ppl in a group to complete a 5ppl assignment?
no~~
but, what the hec* is going on now?

there is smtg wrong happening...
inside my body,
maybe hormone,
maybe mental,
i don't know,

guess what...........

i guess i am trying on smtg,
or i am proving smtg to somebody,
or to be socialize,
or to learn desperately after i saw millage between friend n me,


GG.....GG....GG really GG this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


tml, i mean today, there will be presentation,
what am i doing now?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



whats wrong!!!!!!!!!

course.representative liew, cool huh?

well, i am now the course.rep of the AQS course...
wat? u ask me how?
i tot i quickly go be a tiny grouprep den everything will be fine,
but suddenly dunno which guy come out with a idea choose among group.rep.....
zha dao....

wat an incident,
but oso ok la, can learn stuff wat,
because of this, i make frens, its true...


well, here comes the inner part of the pure GEMINI,
i think she hate me,
dunno y,
mayb cos of i am weird~~~
ya a, i am weird r, blow me r?
ei, but i adi very obvious wor....
ya, even u say i now standing face to face with her,
i could turning around n c smtg else.....
ya la ya la, who stand on the tallest building close to moon more....
everyday somemore tim~~~~~~~


damn!

hereby i would like to mention another gal,
neutral creep(i used to call her)
she is quite strange,
mayb i should say, in front of her i am strange.....
i will call her to pray for me n so do she will ask me....
is it normal?
ji mui? heng dai?






bcos of low effeciency,i made whole course ppl don have note to attend lecture 2 times adi!!!!2 continue day....damn!

supposely i should very appreciate the study moment,
but dunno y, i am last time alike,
still flowing time like old time.....
i don wan that!!!!

its time to make some decision...

if there is a ying chou, tml will be my 1st....

sorry mom,
sorry dad,
sorry bro,
n sorry sis n sis.....

sorry grandpa,
sorry grandma...


ya, i used to not very care of f.a.m.i.l.y
but not now...


tml will b my initial ex bday party,
at serdang,
i don feel like going,
1stly, cos of my pocket,
2nd, cos of my car,
3rd, cos of my very good fren another invitation,
4th, cos of my mom housework,
5th, cos of i dint used to chat much with her(the main character)
6th, i just wan to sleep n act useless at house(for another last day)

shit....

wo jing ran fa re yi ge wo jue de kai xin de meng,
wo kan dao ta shang wanag le!!!!!
noob !!

love is a happy matter

ya, love should be a happy matter,
i believe you might have a bad feeling when u thinking of your love (when she/he not fall into you but another god dam* mother fuc*er fellow)
then you start feel imbalance, you not happy with anyone in your life, stop believing anyone, or even starting to curse the fellow,
ya, it is normal, other than curse the fellow actually i did do the same thing,
you may want to hit his face when he is handling your lover, (i think that's so man, girl ignore this part, if any girl here)

but, is that call love? (other than hit his face)

come on, if she/he is happy,
not a big deal what,
you wan she/he happy only what,
is it a matter who is that people that she lying or lying on he?

love got many forms,
got pick, hold, stand, ignore, and many other that i don't know,
but the most high level of love is....
ya, that's it!!! you got it,

is release~~

if release is the only way to make your lover happy,
free her/him....

then you will have the relief...

then open your eyes big big,
see the people beside you,
there must be someone who is always taking care of you,
he/she is the one who eying you chasing after another fellow but still keep their sad behind them and smiling in front of you...

if you dare to picked up,
dare to put it down when the times come....

well, that is not my story,
just suddenly feel like want to share these....hehe...

泽式人生

i dare to dream....
i 'ao cai' my left leg,
i am planing to 'ao cai' the right one oso...
^^


no la...i stil wan to play football...
ya, i guess thats is it..
i am hopeless...
the up sky star deemed another time because of me....

yue lao a yue lao....

cant u jz tighten up the red line of mine?
i know u r bz.....
come on, i could eat vege for months for that.....plz~~~


chong a!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


study mood/ ulti that need 1 yr to cd, on!!!!

sorry just like blood

once u say sorry for several times,
it will continue non stop....
just like blood,
is an evil substance,
once u let ppl blood to flow,
there will same goes to u....

i reali have no leadership at all,
i cant rem which i organised the stuff can go smoothly,
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

haha...nvm la,no leadership stil can be minor minor member....
this minor minor member,
in fact, is my main character....

hmm, i know, my bday is coming,
but, i don wan to celebrate, can?
plz.......

i am enough of faces of not happy bcos of waiting,
jz like a lame procedure,
lame working,
sing song, eat cake, blow candle, cut cake into pieces, u not sian others oso sian laaaaa.....

its my bday, i dun wan to cause any1 of them unhappy,
they r so considering, even not happy oso won show out,
tat is my unwant part,
i should start studying le....

a test on how close to your sucessful life,

eating tiger biscuit in front of laptop,(not eating real lunch, eating finger instead)

homework a lot lying on table,(and u r still here)

eyeing friend is getting into a relationship,(not feeling well)

and start planning dont wan to talk to them anymore,

in the same time open the note book in your heart and disqualified them,

not very good with all member in the family,

even your brother is looking down on you,

dont attend classes because of your not serious injury,

wont allow injury for your dad business,(but for football, yes)

hoping god give you more time on study tomorrow,

always loveless before getting into relationship,

have more different gentle friend than same gentle,

feel like you are alone in the college hall,

feel like all friend beside you is just the same close level with any other strangers,

not dare to talk/like/enjoy/have fun/chat to the girl/guy that you like before when they getting into relationship,(which obviously not getting in with you)

feel like you are more and more want to get yourself into the couple go die club,

feel like window live messenger in your computer is unstallable anytime,

blaming on your self much more than others,

think that you are just different from others and you will find your way very soon,

feel like you still have a bright future after you having most of above stated behaviour,

more yes on above stated list,

you are more in the hell...

so many thing to say this month...

thx la,
thx for the happiest changing umbrella,
thx for the happiest ever missing way on the road,
thx for the happiest rain ever,
thx for the happiest , sweetest soya bean ever, (i kept the bottle still now)
thx for the happiest , disappointed ever,
thx for the happiest , ever, christmas after my ex...
you overlapped her with flying colours.....
that night, even lok-lok also being most delicious food ever,
and that is the very second of pic that we took together.....
i remember i accidentally touched your hand in the changing of gear, i felt electrocuted....

thx for the heineken experiences of feeling,
from that i know u r not really a good drinker,
and you like one of my idol as well,
which my anti-alchohol drinking behaviour might help...
that was so so so so happy, even i been scolded gao gao after that,
i received all that with sweetest smile ever....

thx for choosing me as a classrep,
which u wont c that your smile is flashing in my eye from the arm of steven....
that is the most beautiful scene.....ever....
haha, we meet each other with a foolish smile,
it is so, so glad......

i like the way u used to called me,
which i would beg another chance to hear that again once more....

i will try another year, for the support you gave me on singing....
even i failed 3 continues times on the very 1st leg,
haha...that is enough for me to move forward....
even when i type this, i am smiling,
just a few drops of sorry moisturing my eye,

when we used to escaping out of the class for the bread,
even it is raining, i prefer to choose the long way with you,
of course, you are always exactly under the umbrella,
or else.............i wont allow or else to happen...

i would always remember you like sesame soup,
you like TANK,
and you affected me love taylor swift,
no, please don choose i-phone, as i heard it is not user friendly....

i guess you have your rational, your decision,
i respect and ignore it with full of my willingness....
no matter what they had said,
i cant really hear them...

hope it will be no sorry to any of us some day at the future, to feel sorry with....


so lucky i am not having a guitar,
or else, it will be really tear dropping....

...

i am so sorry for one of my ex...

she is just complain n complain n complain of her friend....

in fb,

come on....don act like that ok, act like u wana the whole world to know bout ur friendship is suc*....

and one more, gals n guys out there,
don act that u r very harmony or happy or wat out there with ur couple,
especially in the fb....plz....






hahahahhahahahahahahahahah.....i might be end up joining "couple go die" club....

i am so afraid

i am so afraid of getting in the a relationship,
i know myself very much,
i am useless,
i am lazy,
no doubt,
i might have a good first impression,
but in a long term,
it is horrible,
u can even ask my bro that used to stay with me all past of his life time,
he know me very very very much,
i
i could easily been defeated by any one out there,
in the long term basis,
just like a 'kampong' boy teenager team with a fat striker,
against the unbeatable barcelona full squad.....
ya, i am so afraid,
no matter who,
i am so ....
no confidence to satisfied about,

no, i have confidence, about what?
i am very good in day dreaming,
ya, day dreaming......


no......
i am not useless....
i am eating vege these few days,
i did car wash of my dad car,
hmm........i....
use less plastic bags,
i am car pooling,
i have a dream.........ya, that dream.....
which i don even dare to dream in my own dream......

but, i have that dream.......

by the way, how to change potential to a real powerful power?

yaya....i have a serious social problem,
which, i found that all my group member is leaving me,
in my college,
whats going on?
what had i done?
why don u all just cham me play??


ah ha!!!
i knew it,
do i cham them play? no
did i joining them all the time? no
do i act like a very friendly guy when gather with them? no


ah ha!!!! i got "me"!!!!


not all la, of course,
but i dunno y, i dun like to talk to guys, i really do have problem to talk to guy..
only certain gal that willing to talk to me,

ohya, this semester i have 2 pretty tutorial teacher in charge of my group....
hahahahahahaha.....

many of my friend said i have a good talent on singing,
but, i just been kicked out like any one else in the asq ......
the judges don seems to be enjoying my performance.....

am i expected my self too much?
btw i have no nervous at all during my perform time....
haha....so sad to become my neighbour,
this is ur fate to torture living beside my house,
i sing all the time!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
can some one tell me where went wrong?


ah ! ha!!!
i got it,
this is ur problem,
your very own problem,
y r u acting beg on other to settle ur own problem?
y on u settle your self?

oh my god...u r dam* right....


well u just cant act like this,
there r at least 1 ppl out there who will look at this,
what will they think of u this fellow?
so unconfidence....
guy still ok, but no gal like a un confident guy,
so~~~~~
u will end up like this,
ya like this u r having NOW....
u won be like y anybody....

not even one....if and only if u don change this....

u know what mr...
i am tired trying,
falling again n again n again.....
den stand up again,
walk har walk har den fall again....
this is enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


haha....stand up again...
u watch yes man right?(thx to sk)
u watch kung fu panda right?(sk again)
what can u c from them?
u wan to act like the YES man b4 going to the seminar?
end up closing himself?


ic, so u r suggesting me to re-watch the movie again to get back the enthusiasm?


perhaps, yes...



hahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....very funny,
so , i have to repeating the movie again n again n again once i feel that i lost my self again n again n again n again?




..................




come on, i am depending on u, don speechless, plz......




u know what?
s a part of u,
i cant cure u.....



..............................so what i am going to do with it?
u r me, come on!!!!!!!!!! u must help me....................



i might be u, but, u r u, u r not me in this case,
so u gonna help yourself,
act positively,
eat more vege,
fruit, or smile more....

or last and the worst option,
go for the counseling again....

no title for this

u know wat, u know how it feel when u r doing for all past of your life, is wrong?

really quite regret

i am really feel regret that i told her....

NOOB!!!!!!!!!!!

wellll

if this is my comp, the 1st thing i will do is unstall msn.....

dance is just hard as ice skatting,
the injury part all same...

out of money......

chi chin chin chin......

aaaa....no money, messages is dam* expensive....

any one know how to get cheaper rate of messages from hotlink to DG?

haha....but it is happy to get some reply from someone....

unlike someone.....call "billions" times adi oni pick up once.....in the moon which blue

dun like oso not need like this one mah.....

haha....jkjkjkjk....but plz....reply la....anyone...

yeah u...don turn ur head around....i mean u......take it carefully....

ya.....i guess i miss u....

dunno r u looking at it or not...

no matter who u r....

in this such a boring blog....

ya....i miss u....

无奈。。。

when u happy that u earned a dollar,
there is always a person who is upset for the one dollar that he had lost....



等待扼杀灵感！！！！！！

what can i say......

what can i say what can i say............

nx year....i must enter....sing ah guai again!!!

hello

hi there, just for ur information,
i am starting industry training and working as a trainee QS at a small firm,
its fun, people are nice and friendly,
haha....n i have a lot of fun with them....while working of course...

hmm....y gals don like to reply?
i thought my hp spoil until cant send out msg,
y r???

not oni 1, but most of them,
i don think so that i caused that much of people unhappy with me......

happy new year sien until a level...
ohya,
to all of you,
my grandpa is ok adi,
so happy wit that....^^

so miss u guys.......
i don like holiday...
i don like days without lecture....
can coll have some lecture class in between training???
i don think so,
cos people is staying nowhere but their hometown,
like sarawak....sabah...

currently i found that potential inside all individual is really almost the same....
so,
i trying to self study for my resiting subject science for building,economic and probably,
building services ii again....

result is coming out,
dunno wat will it showed?

i am seriuos,
i dint put in that much of effort b4 that....
i am touching my breast and saying that i will have no regret on not putting in effort...This time....

career i mentioned,
life i mentioned,
frinedship i touche a bit,
now......love

nowadays,
i learnt a stuff from a gal,
somewhere at the other side of m`sia,
which is,
if u really want to own a thing,
u better let it go,
set it free,
if it come back,
u will own it forever.....
if it don come back to u,


u didn`t really own it in your life time.....

lastly,

economic suc*sssssssssss....

hihi...me again...

well...i just done my examination,
i am not sure what result will b d return,but...
only one thing i can be sure of is...i already tried my very best....
that`s the one and only thing i can sure of...so far in my life time..

today is the 1st day of my long long holiday,
i awake at 2pm in the afternoon because of yesterday i and my college friend stay together all the midnight for playing Dot.A.. ya,i had a lot of fun with them just after done my tiring examination..

oh ya,i and my friend went time square for movie, stay together, having lunch,
talk....ops, forgot to mention that that`s could be the last time of meeting them in a half year period...so, i did appreciate that period....

but, i couldn`t make it to meet her in the last day of today,
when i falling deep asleep,
my brother took my car key and went to shopping with his friends,
my plan spoiled....that is really un-calculateable,
as she is leaving on tomorrow,
i can`t even make it to see her lastly....

what can i do?
as my dad and mom already lose patient to me as i always late returning to home...
and i have a few argue with them...they will not allow me going anymore....
but i guess,
if they were me,
they will do the same thing as well...
and i know,
if i were them,
i will do the same thing to me as well....
what a conflict....
oh god......

hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...............................................

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